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So here I am, deciding to start a blog.
Like millions of other women, I am a stay at home mom of 2 wonderful kids. This for me, will be an outlet for many things. A place to vent, to gossip and maybe even talk about some reality TV. (Don't pretend that you don't watch it. We all have our guilty pleasures.)

And so it begins...

The other night after getting in bed I was asked a simple question by my husband, something along the lines of "what's going on, you seem distant..." and that's all it took. Que the waterworks and this sudden overwhelming feeling that I am drowning. All because of one simple question, that, on any other day would have garnered an "I'm just thinking about things" response. Unfortunately for my husband, and his early work schedule, he asked the wrong question at the exact wrong time. For whatever reason, all the problems in the world, past and present, just made a home in my head and wouldn't leave. I just unloaded about my less than glamorous childhood, how I'm not confident in my mothering skills, my lack of gym time lately and how Im not feeling like Im getting much done around the house lately. Just everything. It wouldn't stop coming, I kept thinking of more that was wrong, with me, with life, with my house...Meanwhile, my wonderful husband was reassuring me that I am not the horrible person that I am describing. That I am a great mom and we have great kids who impress us often (this is true, although sometimes I wonder how we got so lucky) and show us that we are on the right track in raising them into confident adults. But that's my husband, he can always look at the bright side for me and bring me back to reality.
I think sometimes we all need to have these meltdowns to realize how/what we can do to better ourselves as people. There is no right or wrong way to parent kids. Everyone has a different idea of how to raise their kids. There is no handbook for a reason. I have always been told that if you're worrying about your parenting skills, you're a good parent. I love my kids and my husband so much that I just want to be the best I can for them. Sometimes though, there are just too few hours in the day to do it all. I have to start realizing that its ok to not always be everything for everyone everyday. Sometimes, taking time for yourself is the best thing you can do to make those around you happy!